So I got dumped again. Yep same girl. ha ha.. When will I learn?

She wanted to be friends. I told her I couldnt becaues I felt that if she wanted me she could do what it takes. So obviously she didnt want me. I mean, I am fantastic (ha ha).

She made a good point.  Why cant I be her friend? I'm friends with another ex.  Its true. I am "friendds" if you call listening to her bitch about her girlfriend, and ask me stupid questions all the time a friendship.  I mean I never see her. SHe is far far away. I havent seen her in four years.  I guess the distance helps... but the lesson here that I need to learn is; I dont need her, she is just u sing me. Get her out of my life.

So its done. both exes out of my life.  No more Ms Nice Fat Lesbian. I'm done with being nice to others. I shoudl be nice to just me for a while. Until someone comes along who deserves it.

With my most recent ex.  Today's ex... ha ha ummm I told her that what it feels like to be dumped and then asked to be friends is like torture.  She gets what she wants but I dont. So why should I give her what she wants?  More realistically tho... and in adult speak... I dont want to hurt everytime i see her. I would, and I would go home and cry. and I dont want to go thru that again. WIth my Yesterday Ex... I cried hard for years, and overate.  I dont need that.  So its best to just cut it off and let it heal over.  I mean seriously who wants to keep chopping off their arm and stitching it back on over and over again? Not me..Hella ouch.

ANyway.. Bygones.  I hope to never speak on the subject again. Fingers crossed.